Today I saw a picture in my spirit of a small opening in a cloudy sky where the sun broke through. The moment I saw it I thought about when Elijah saw the cloud the size of a man’s hand and prophesied “the abundance of rain.” When I saw this small breakthrough in the cloud (allowing the sun to break through), I immediately felt the Spirit of God say, “Prophesy the breakthrough! A new day is breaking through.”
The clouds may still be more apparent than the small opening that allows the sun to shine through but take heart and do not give up. You can come into agreement that the new day is breaking through.
Yesterday was the the first day of Nisan which is the first day of the first month in the Jewish calendar (1 Nisan 5781)— it was the beginning of a new year crossover as we, here in Norrh America, “sprang forward” in time. It is time for us to spring forward into the breakthrough of a new day and new year.
Stand with me and prophesy the breakthrough for you personally and for His people corporately.
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Some of you are so very weary right now. Jesus wants you to know how deep his compassion is toward you. He is with you right where you are with no expectations except for you to allow him to love you and give you rest.
Some of you are so very burdened right now. The weight of what you are carrying feels like if your strength fails that everything will fall to the ground and crumble. Jesus wants you to know how deep his compassion is for you. He is with you right where you are to remove the yoke and burden that you are carrying. He will trade it for his yoke which is merely to trust him for all you need and all that you are carrying.
““Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”” Matthew 11:28-30
The Father is so gentle with you! His Son is the fullness of “humble in heart” toward you. He is inviting you to come into his arms and receive the rest that you so desperately need. He has healing for your heart, provision for all that you need, restoration for all that has hurt you and caused you to feel that you must carry this heavy burden.
He loves you so very much— he knows you intimately, every part of you— and yes, he still loves you— you take his breath away. He is pouring out the abundance of his love over you even now. Let go of the control (the yoke that has wearied you) and let your pain fall into his lap. He wants to carry you and refresh you in his love.
Receive his love. For he is gentle and humble in heart…
Thank you to all of my readers who have helped to carry our burdens through prayer and financial support. I have no words that are adequateto thank you properly.
Have you ever tried to change the clothes on a baby that would not lay still? Most of us moms have gone through this process more times than we can count. It is like a wrestling match that makes the whole process drawn out much longer than it needed to be. I remember that there were times, after some sort of “baby blow out”, that was followed by one of these wrestling matches. As they struggled (resisting my nurturing help) I wondered if my baby even cared that he was covered in filth and that his resistance was only making it worse. Did he not want to be clean? Did he not want to smell fresh again? Did he not want to feel the comfort of new garments?
Does this sound familiar? Are some of you going through a season that God is asking you to be still? Though this stillness may be an internal stillness of your soul rather than an external stillness from physical activity, it still seems to insight a fight or wrestle in most people. We resist the very hand that has come to help us, nurture us and make us clean.
Maybe it is just that, like babies, we don’t know that the garments of our soul have become soiled by the accuser? Or maybe we don’t like to stripped of what we have gotten comfortable in. Or maybe it is just that we hate to be still and trust the hand that is changing us!
Many of God’s children are in a time of “being changed.” You may have merely outgrown the garments you have been wearing and need new ones that fit who you have become and the development you have gone through. Do not fight the process but trust the hand that is washing you and putting néw garments upon you.
When my kids were babies I would often stop between the removing of one garment and the dressing them in a new one to get lotions or oils and give them a massage. At first they’d often begin trying to flip over to get away but once my hands began to massage their little feet, legs, hands and arms they would lay back in absolute peace. When it was done they were so relaxed that dressing them was easy.
God may be doing the same thing for you. He has not only removed the soiled garments and washed you but he is restoring peace and relaxation— rest for you over-active soul. He is restoring trust so that you will receive all that is in his hands for you. He is cleansing, purifying, anointing, healing and changing your garments.
The winter garments are about to be changed into garments suitable for spring! Some of you are having grave clothes removed and adorned in “Easter” (resurrection) outfits. The black and white— even grey outdoor scenery is preparing to receiving a makeover. Leaves will suddenly appear, blossoms will appear and the grass will turn green once again. The land will give you a preview of what is happening inside of your heart and soul. His Spirit is moving inside of you to bring forth new life!
Though you do not see it now, be still because your fight and wrestle is only delaying the birthing of this new season. Take time to enjoy his tender touch, his washing and then watch and see what he has chosen to adorn you in. Even the angels have gathered all around you to assist and to watch the beauty that comes forth in you. Get still and receive from his tender hand.
“Be still and know that I am God…”
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In 2020 the Lord gave me what He called, “The Three R’s For 2020.” Those three “R’s” were the words “Remnant, Ruach (which means Breath of God) and Roar.” They became the three themes that I saw overlaid in all that was taking place. Though the world had entered a global pandemic and my nation (the United States of America) had entered a new type of civil war, the global remnant was moving in the Ruach and Roar of God! It was a sound that called us together as a global Ecclesia and empowered us through His the breath to released His mighty roar.
As we moved into the first two months of 2021 it was as if the sound ceased, the breath was held and the remnant was suddenly hidden from sight. But there is something happening in this third month of 2021. Can you feel the shaking beneath your feet? Can you feel the atmosphere beginning to tremble with the fear of the Lord. And can you hear the rattling of the dry bones beginning to move?
There is a saying that says, “March comes in like a lion but goes out like a lamb.” This is a line from an old English proverb that refers to how March often begins with extremely harsh weather but ends with mild weather. But the Lord spoke the reverse to me, He said, “March will come in like a lamb but will go out like a lion!”
I saw a vision of a tiny newborn lamb trying to rise. This newborn lamb was soft and pure white. It was making the tiny sound that made me think of what new life would sound like. I asked the Lord, “Who is this lamb?” And He replied, “My reborn ones.” I saw that something deep had occurred spiritually that caused a rebirthing in His remnant where they emerged white as snow, tender (soft) in their hearts and with the faith of a child.
Then the vision changed and I was suddenly taken back into an encounter that I had a few years back. In this encounter I was a small white lamb standing on a hillside looking down upon the walled city of Jericho. The voice of the Lord came to me and said, “Go down to the city and release your sound.” In this encounter I remember thinking, “I’m just a lamb and my sound is so very small.” But the voice of the Lord came once again and said, “Go down to the city and release your sound.” I began walking timidly toward the city and as I walked I noticed a large shadow overtop of me that I thought was a moving canopy. In my peripheral view I could see what appeared to be large poles moving with me as well. My first thought was that the Lord was covering me with His canopy of protection as I (in the form of this small lamb) was moving toward this walled city. When I was finally close to the city I heard Him say, “Now, release your sound.” I opened my mouth fully expecting the tiny bleet of a lamb to come forth but what came forth was the loudest lion’s roar I had ever heard. The sound caused the walls of this fortified city to crumble and the enemy (that held the city captive) scattered in every direction in absolute fear. Then, as this encounter continued, I suddenly found myself on a battlefield before an enormous enemy army. Standing front and center (at a distance) before me was the great giant, Goliath. Again I heard the words, “Go and stand before this giant and release your sound.” As I began to move forward the taunts and mockery from the army and from the giant were growing louder and louder. Yet, once again I noticed the shadow over me and the “poles” beside me as I walked forward (still in the form of a small lamb). When I was finally standing directly in front of the giant I heard the voice of the Lord say, “Look up.” I looked up and what I thought was a canopy of protection covering me was actually the under-belly of the largest lion I had ever seen. Then I looked and what I had thought were the poles where actually his four massive legs. I knew that the Lion of Judah had been walking with me (over me) the entire time. With this new understanding; faith and confidence filled me— for the Lion was much larger than the giant that stood before me. Then he said, “Release your sound.” Once again as I opened my mouth to release my sound what came forth was the roar of the Lion of Judah. The giant fell to his death and the enemy army ran in fear from that place where they had mocked me. Then I heard him speak the words, “I am with you— always!”
Then I was back in the vision that began this morning (March 8, 2021), when I saw the newborn pure white lamb that had been reborn. As I re-experienced the encounter from a few year back, so did this lamb. Then suddenly the lamb rose to its feet and took on the identity of the Lion of Judah. It took on the appearance, the sound and the power of the Lion of Judah. This vision ended with the words, “March will come in like a lamb but go out like a Lion.”
With this I saw the three “R’s” from 2020 (Remnant, Ruach and Roar) and then a fourth “R” was added— RISE! March will prove to be a month where we rise again! Like Jesus coming forth from the grave, the remnant will feel the breath of God, hear the roar of the Lion of Judah and we will RISE AGAIN!
Do you feel the “awakening” that is beginning to take place? If you don’t, then get ready to! God is awakening His church and He’s waking up those who have not been awakened to the unconditional love of the Father.
I hear the Lord speaking the words from John 11:11,
“Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep, but now I will go and wake him up.”
I began hearing words like, “My friend __ (fill in the blank) has fallen asleep but now I will go and wake him up.”
I hear it over sons, daughters, cities and nations.
“My friend America has fallen asleep but now I will go and wake her up.”
It has been like an echo resounding in my spirit for many days now. Only, within the echo the name changes each time it goes forth.
There is a great awakening! In the places that a spirit of lethargy or even death has come to put even those in Christ to sleep (or in a grave); God is kissing His bride and awakening her to be His bride.
There are prodigals that are waking up and many sons and daughters will suddenly come to their senses; they will be overwhelmed with WHO HE IS! Deceptions will fall away, lies will be replaced by truth and true identity will be restored. They will suddenly understand and be awakened to the depth, height and lengths of the love of God for them.
There are people, churches, cities and even nations that have been like Lazarus; dead and stinking in a sealed grave but Jesus will arrive on the scene to “Awaken His friend.”
I believe that we are about to enter a time where we will even see the dead raised. Not merely the spiritually dead but the physically dead. He will be glorified through the raising of the dead and many will believe because of these miracles.
Unbelief is like the death of faith and God is about to display His unbelievable power that will break this death and unbelief off of many. They will believe and put their trust in God once more.
There is an old and very loved Christmas movie called “Miracle On 34th Street” where the young Natalie Woods is trying to have faith and belief for the first time. In one scene toward the end of the movie she is riding in a car on Christmas Day repeating the words, “I believe, I believe…” over and over. Her miracle not only comes but it far exceeds her wildest dreams. I keep seeing this scene in my mind and the great joy she experiences when her childlike faith “to believe in the impossible” is finally realized.
We may be in for a “Miracle On 34th Street” type of experience for many who have lost their childlike faith. The death of dreams and desires will be awakened and great joy will fill hearts once again. The Lord took me to Exodus 34 while I was pondering the title “34th Street” and this is what I read,
“Listen, I am making a covenant with you in the presence of all your people. I will perform miracles that have never been performed anywhere in all the earth or in any nation. And all the people around you will see the power of the Lord —the awesome power I will display for you.” Exodus 34:10
Miracles! Awakening! Resurrections! He is going to awaken His friends. Begin to declare, “I believe, I believe!!” Let it ring through the atmosphere and into the places where unbelief has brought death to your faith. Let it rise like the sound of a bell ringing or the sound of life coming back into a dead man. “I BELIEVE!” Shout it, sing it, declare it over every dead thing.
Miracles are coming and all the people around you will see the awesome power of your God!
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On March 1st I began to feel something stirring in my spirit and in the atmosphere that was like an awakening or a “rousing”—a stirring—in my spirit to rise up and begin to march once again. As I woke up on March 2nd I felt the strong sense of angelic presence— as if they’d come to rouse, awaken, and recommission those who have been waiting and watching.
I live in the Washington DC region and since the beginning of the year it has been a time of waiting, worshipping, watching, and washing. It has felt like being cocooned during a transition and personal metamorphosis. Yet, I have been so aware of the evil that has been taking place from DC and from those who have taken residence there to lead our nation away from God and His statutes. Even so, many have not been released to do anything but wait, worship, and be washed.
But suddenly I sense this “spiritual rousing” is stirring in the atmosphere and I sense that it looks a bit like the breath that comes upon the dry bones, causing them to gather together, stand up, and receive muscles, flesh, and life; then they march forth as an army.
Do you feel the mountains that have stood before you, to block your way and your vision, beginning to tremble? Do you feel the ocean that pulled you under it’s mighty strength beginning to roar with the voice of the Lion of Judah, who is calling you to rise and walk upon the surface of what fiercely pulled you under? Do you sense the presence of His heavenly host coming to rouse and commission His army that has been waiting in caves?
Something is stirring. Something is trembling. Something is rousing and something will rise. It is as if a moment of great silence descended on us, and God’s people entered into a holy hush as they became “still.” It has been a “Be still and know that I am God” posture of pure and unadulterated trust in Him. All we have known to do is to stand, because we did all that we knew to do already.
I hear in my spirit a unified and unbreakable sound in the distance coming from a great army arising; not from one nation or one people but from His global family. As I listen intently for the words they are carrying I hear one line repeated again and again. It is the words, “In God We Trust!”
No longer will these words belong to America or merely be words on American currency, but they belong to the people who have been called by His name and who have stood in His faithfulness alone. These words have now been written on their hearts and upon their lives.
They know one another by the spirit and have been joined spirit to spirit by His Holy Spirit. They have been forged in fire; their lips have been purified with coals from the altar; their hands have been cleansed with the pure water of His Word, and their hearts have become fully His. They will trust in no other and follow no other but the One who is King of Kings.
Respond to His angelic rousing— deep calls unto deep as He stirs a great awakening.
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We all know that hope and faith is only needed for “what we do not see.” It is what keeps us moving forward, it is what helps us overcome and it is the wind that carries us into tomorrow. As believers, our hope and faith are found first and foremost in Jesus. We hope in His promises and we have faith in His everlasting love that will never fail us. Hope and faith are both with us and before us through our beloved Savior— they give us vision in our “today” and “a vision” (that brings expectations of beauty) for our tomorrow.
Hope and faith are easy to access in times of joy and light. In those times we lay down at night bathed in the pleasures from the day lived and we wake up the next morning in a joyful hope for even greater pleasure in the day that lays before us. Yet, sorrow, grief and unexpected hard times can come and when they do it can feel like you’ve lost yourself in a dark wilderness. You wake up and wonder how to find the pleasures that you had just yesterday and the expectations of pleasures that you dreamed of for your tomorrow’s. This unexpected sorrow can come through many sources— loss, lack, hope deferred, crisis or even just the atmosphere around you. Suddenly, in the midst of hope and faith you can’t find vision and everything become disoriented.
January 1st, 2021 became the beginning of a time of disorientation for me. It began a fierce 24-hour a day battle in prayer for my younger brother’s life that lasted 21 days; then I watched his beautiful body was lowered into a grave. At the same time, many in our nation were grieving, others were losing loved ones and isolation was taking a toll on the younger generation. Being a “feeler”, these things can really touch your soul with deep emotions. I am also a “glass half full” person, therefore my hope and faith were not shaken but my soul suddenly became downcast and disoriented.
The other day I had an appointment with the eye doctor because my natural vision has become very blurry and disorienting (a bit like my emotional and spiritual vision). When the doctor was finding my prescription she commented that I must be having a difficult time with things because one of my eyes is extremely nearsighted and one of my eyes is extremely farsighted (this is unusual). I was quite surprised and assured her that it has made my vision quite challenging. When she found the right lenses for both of my eyes and let me look through them, it was like coming out of the disoriented place and finding clarity.
This natural condition began to speak to me regarding my spiritual condition. In the natural I have always enjoyed perfect vision in both eyes. I could actually see further than most people I knew. This has been true spiritually as well. As a “seer” my vision is one of the things that I enjoy the most. I love to see God, I love to see His perspective and I love the “unseen” realm. Honestly, it is often more clear to me than the natural realm. What joy this has brought to my walk with God! When my physical vision began to change it was hard but I always knew that there were glasses or remedies to clear my sight. Yet, when 2021 began and suddenly my spiritual sight had changed— a deep struggle came with it. I couldn’t see clearly close up or far way. For a seer to lose vision is devastating. I wondered if there was a remedy for this?
Then the Spirit began to talk to me about how I needed new sight for the new age. Just like I am dealing with “aging natural eyes”, I need new lenses for a new time and age. Things have shifted and I need a “stronger spiritual lenses” for these days. His eyes must be the lenses that I look through to have vision and clarity for today and for tomorrow. Hope and faith are the frames but His eyes are the lenses.
“For we walk by faith, not by sight,” 2 Corinthians 5:7
My faith has had to increase and my hope fully found in Christ alone; not governments, earthly freedoms, comforts or even the people around me. When I look into His eyes I see beyond the temporal and begin to grasp the eternal. There, I find the window to the eternal and I am comforted and strengthen. Through His eyes I am able to come to the realization that my brother and all who have “died in faith” see with absolutely clarity now. They no longer are searching, striving or stumbling but they have eyes that have beheld our eternal HOPE. There promise of a future and hope is fully realized!
I have begun to understand that we do not have to wait to begin to have the beautiful Holy Spirit adjust our eyes to behold Him or to see the eternal realm. Our eyes are being adjusted to see beyond the world around us, see beyond the chaos and see beyond the heights we have know in order to grasp the eternal. I am still going in and out of clarity but I am learning to focus on His eyes so that I adjust my vision to see as He sees.
It is easy to see what has changed in the world around us. Darkness has covered the world and we have begun to adjust our eyes to see pretty clearly in the dark…but God is adjusting our eyes to the LIGHT— the Light that is eternal!
Another interesting thing that happened with my natural eyes is that I was having a hard time with light. All light sources were causing what I’d call “light flares” which were once again distorting everything else. During my eye appointment, the doctor put a plastic object over my eyes with tiny pin holes in it. She asked me to find a pin hole and look through it to the letters on the chart across the room. As I did that I suddenly could see what was before me. All of the letters came into focus. It was like a beam of light that gave me a portal of focus. This can happen when eyes have astigmatism which is when the front surface of the eye or the lens, inside the eye, is curved differently in one direction than the other. I believe that God is clearing up an spiritual astigmatism that has caused us to have a divided focus. His eyes are like that pin hole— the narrow way that brings clear and undivided focus.
Hope and faith will be the pathway to find His eyes which will open up the eternal. Heaven will be opened up before us as the cares of this world fade into the background. I believe we also need to refocus our thoughts. Philippians 4:8 says this,
“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”
The media, even Christian media, often is highlighting the darkness and demonic agendas that are being established as laws throughout the world. Wars and rumors of war fill the air with fear and dread– replacing hope and faith for some. Yet, God has given us instructions on where to focus our thoughts. It is a beginning place that will lead us to His perspective and His eyes…which are windows into the eternal.
Do not fear if you have lost clarity or focus. Ask our precious Holy Spirit to be your spiritual optometrist that will correct your vision and adjust your sight for the days that we are living in and the true hope set before us— which is eternal and unshakable. Jesus has sealed our hope with His blood— giving us a secure faith.
“Because God wanted to show His unchangeable purpose even more clearly to the heirs of the promise, He guaranteed it with an oath, so that through two unchangeable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled for refuge might have strong encouragement to seize the hope set before us. We have this hope as an anchor for our lives, safe and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain. Jesus has entered there on our behalf as a forerunner, because He has become a high priest forever in the order of Melchizedek.” Hebrews 6:17-20
Turn your eyes upon Jesus!
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During this time of Purim, I have been meditating on the Book of Esther. As I have read this book over and over again. The part that has stood out to me more than any other part begins in Esther 2:15.
“Esther was the daughter of Abihail, who was Mordecai’s uncle. (Mordecai had adopted his younger cousin Esther.) When it was Esther’s turn to go to the king, she accepted the advice of Hegai, the eunuch in charge of the harem. She asked for nothing except what he suggested, and she was admired by everyone who saw her.
Esther was taken to King Xerxes at the royal palace in early winter[a] of the seventh year of his reign. And the king loved Esther more than any of the other young women. He was so delighted with her that he set the royal crown on her head and declared her queen instead of Vashti.” Esther 2:15-17
After the twelve months of beauty treatments, each virgin was to pick what they wanted to wear and adorn themselves with before being brought into the king’s chambers. But Esther decided to deferred to the counsel of the king’s trusted official, Hegai, who would know what the king truly desired. She wore only what he suggested; rather than clothing herself with what she desired, she clothed herself in the King’s desire.
This is what I have felt that the Holy Spirit has been doing with the us in these days. The Holy Spirit is like Yeshua’s trusted official to mankind (though so much more- He is One with the Father and the Son). He knows the desire of our King. The bride has been longing to rid herself of all “her choosing” so that she can be fully clothed in her Beloved’s desire; just as Esther was clothed in nothing except what would fulfill King Xerxes desire. When he looked upon her he fell deeply in love with her and took her as his queen; placing the royal crown upon her head. I believe that as we yield to the desire of our our King, settling for nothing less, there is a crown of bridal (queenly) authority that is placed upon our head. His bride will go before the King and she will receive favor– even to the point of being used to reverse evil decrees that have been put in place.
The desire to please our King has been awakened like never before in His bride. There is a holy desperation to rid our lives of any other thing- except His desire. Every other name is being removed (even our own names). We long to take His name as our identity and our crown.
“There I will give her vineyards back to her and make the Valley of Achor (Trouble) into a gateway of hope. There she will respond as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came out of Egypt. In that day- this is the Lord’s declaration– you will call Me, ‘My husband,’ and no longer call Me, ‘My Baal.’ For I will remove the names of the Baals (Masters) from her mouth; they will no longer be remembered by their names.” Hosea 2:15-17
Isn’t it interesting that these scriptures are from Esther 2:15-17 and from Hosea 2:15-17? Esther is presenting herself in purity to become a bride and Hosea is redeeming his wayward bride so that she can be made pure.
There is a bride being prepared, to stand as an Esther before her King and there is also a redeeming of every wayward place that has sought out other “lovers” and become enslaved to their name and harsh rule over her. God is redeeming His bride so that she will be clothed in His desire alone and reign with Him in purity and authority. She is taking His name and every other name (Baal or master) is being removed from her.
As we are in the time of Purim, let us ask the Holy Spirit to instruct us how we are to clothe ourselves. Let us lay aside our thoughts and be clothed with His desire. Let every name but His be removed from our lives so that we become “His desire.”
“I will give them a desire to know me and to be my people. They will want me to be their God, and they will turn back to me with all their heart.” Jeremiah 24:7
“Clothe and adorn us, Holy Spirit, in all that our King desires. May He be our whole desire and may we be ‘His desire.’ We long to turn back to You with our whole heart. We will call you ‘Husband’ and we thank you for removing the names of Baal from us and redeeming us as your own.” Amen
Today could have been a real emotional train wreck. “Could have been” are the key words in this sentence. If you follow my writings or my page then you know that 2021 has been nothing short of painful and hard for me. I have wrote about how unfamiliar this place that I am in is to me. It is like a deep gorge that I unexpectedly fell into and now have to walk forward (while disoriented) until I come to the end of it. Then, to add a bit of a “spin” to my already disorienting senses, I received some news today that once again has the potential to change a big part of my life. In the first moments I began to feel sick inside and then I stopped and remembered the lessons from past moments that had the potential to steal my peace. I stopped and asked the Lord to help me and I heard His Spirit say,
“Remain in my love. I have surrounded you in my love today and my love will surround you every day to come.”
I suddenly realized that I was beginning to grieve something that hasn’t even happened yet. I was leaving today and concerning myself with tomorrow. Through all of life’s ebbs and flows there has always been a gift of grace given to me in the moment that I had to walk through a change or transition. When we remain in the moment that we are in, allowing the love that we are continually surrounded in to fill that space, there is peace and grace restored. Yet, when we move into the “yet to come” and the assumptions of what that will look and feel like, we get outside of God’s grace and timetable, forcing us to pull on our own strength and limited understanding.
I have hesitated writing during this season that is personally so difficult for me. The past five previous years have been “mostly” beautiful and writing from that place was a great joy. Writing from a vulnerable place and from this place of grief is hard and it risks misunderstanding by my readers. But, I felt that the Lord asked me to write through the pain and to learn deeper truths from the pain. This is not my first time in the “Valley of Baca” (Trouble) but it is yet another opportunity for me to apply all that I learned on the mountain tops and valleys of past seasons so that I can see Christ established in me all the more. My prayer is that my journey can help others.
If you are in a mountain top season; gather fruit, drink deep of the cool rivers of refreshing and listen to the voice that is clear. If you are in the hill country enjoy the grace of the abiding and steady growth. And if you are in the valley gorge let faith cause you to step forward into the unknown, let the clear voice that you heard on the mountaintop echo into your silence, let the testimonies of old prophesy to your hope– and get still enough to let His love envelope you. In every one of these places and seasons…above all else, REMAIN IN HIS LOVE.
His love is the one sure thing in every place and every season. No matter what lies ahead, His love will be there. No matter what is happening now, His love is with you. No matter what lies behind, His love covers it all. You can move forward as you are held tight in the grip of His everlasting love. His love will never fail you or leave you in want.
Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. “Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:4-5
Remain in His love and watch what beautiful fruit your life will produce in every season.
Have you ever gotten lost on a walk or on a drive? I remember when I was about 20 years old, my husband and I had just moved to Baton Rouge, Louisiana (where he was attending college) and I needed to go grocery shopping after a long day at work. It was dark and I didn’t know my way around the city (this was in the days before cell phones or GPS). I had gone to an area of the city that was unfamiliar to me to shop and when I was done I took a wrong turn (in a wrong direction) and suddenly was I was absolutely lost. I didn’t have any coins for a pay phone and honestly didn’t know who’d I call anyway since my husband was at a night class and I didn’t know anyone in the area.
As I drove, looking for anything even remotely familiar, I began to feel panic— would I ever find my way home. I wasn’t in the city limits anymore and couldn’t even find my way back to a populated area. I had gotten off the “beaten path” and was lost and scared. After over two hours of frantic driving I finally found a familiar landmark and my way back to the college. When I arrived I got out of the car and walked to where my young husband was waiting and when I saw him I just fell in his arms weeping— I had found home— in his arms.
2021 began a bit like this for me personally. It felt like I walked out onto my favorite path but somehow turned a wrong corner and ended up in an unfamiliar wilderness with no path, no way to communicate, no sense of direction and completely alone. Quite honestly, I was disoriented and felt a bit of that old “panic” that I’d experienced when I was lost as a 20 year old in a strange city. I just wanted to find my way home.
I began spiritually and emotionally trying to find something familiar or a sign that would lead me back to the path that I knew— the path home. I would go through each day with varying degrees of numbness, grief, longing, surrender, weeping, etc. Nights were the worst because even the beautiful “God dreams” that accompanied my sleep had become nights of bad dreams. I’d wake up even more disoriented.
Finally, I remembered the words that are told to most young children by their parents, “If you get lost, stay still and I will find you.” So, I stopped trying to find my way home— the way back to the intimacy and the “home” I’d known. I stopped and got very still, waiting for my Father to find me where I was (am).
“Instead, I have calmed and quieted myself, like a weaned child who no longer cries for its mother’s milk. Yes, like a weaned child is my soul within me.” Psalm 131:2
I finally stopped long enough to remember that God has never left me or forsaken me— so I stopped looking for a way out of the wilderness and am now finding him in the wilderness. I am drinking of him and learning to “calm and quiet my soul” in his arms.
It is just like that 20 year old who found home in the arms of her young husband, I am finding home in the arms of God, even in this unfamiliar and strange place. There is not much else in this place but he is everything that I need. The verse that comes directly prior to Psalm 131:2 says this,
“LORD, my heart is not proud; my eyes are not haughty. I don’t concern myself with matters too great or too awesome for me to grasp.” Psalm 131:1
I think that I had begun to concern myself with matters too great and too awesome for me to grasp. They began to be like a “master” over me. I had to humble myself and become like a child. I had to get still and remember that, “He is God.”
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10
The matter of the nations had become to great for me to grasp. The matter of life and death was too awesome for me to fully comprehend and so God brought me into a wilderness place to show me “home.”
“Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor (Valley of Trouble) a door of hope. There she will respond as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt. “In that day,” declares the LORD, “you will call me ‘my husband’; you will no longer call me ‘my master.’ Hosea 2:14-16
The wilderness does not “feel” good but as I have discovered a few other times in my life— this “Valley of Trouble” is usually a door of hope that restores my soul and ushers me into a place of greater abundance. But, we must embrace it rather than fight against it.
Running frantically when you have lost your way only gets you more lost. This is where we must stop, get still and know that he is God. He is with you in the wilderness and he will feed you, hold you, restore you and deliver you from every area that has become enslaved to false “masters.” This is where you find him as “husband.” This is where you run into his arms and find home. Then, you will hear this,
“Who is that coming up from the wilderness, leaning on her beloved?” Song of Solomon 8:5
I think that all too often we take on things that “are too great for us to grasp” and they enslave us to a weight and burden that becomes a master over us. When we’ve done all we can do, it is time to get still and stand (Ephesians 6:13). Stand in who he is and stand in the arms of the One that created all. The earth is his and all that is within it. He is God— our partnership with him is in the context of “bridal covenant” not “slave and master.” That is where the enemy loses his footing and love wins.
Stop running…stop striving…stop panicking! Home is with you— right where you are. He is always with you so be still and let him hold you until you are fully restored— leaning on your Beloved!
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