I often think that we aren’t aware of when we begin living out of a 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑣𝑎𝑙 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑠𝑒𝑡. It is like an old default setting that was hardwired into our souls that we depend upon when things around us begin to be out of our ability to control them.
For me, I learned early on in life to be an expert at 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔. This did not serve me well when it came to issues of surrender or intimacy because the thought behind every surviver mentality is that there is something bad and tragic to survive. And I had a lot happen that reinforced that belief.
In my early years of walking with Jesus, I began to understanding that I couldn’t grow without letting go. I had to learn the difference between surviving and overcoming. Surviving kept me alive but didn’t allow me to thrive because it was rooted in trauma and self-preservation. The kindness and love of fhe Father began to teach me that overcoming was what He desired which is rooted in dependency and trust; not in me or my self-preservation but in full surrender and yielding to Him alone.
This was not an overnight process because the hardwiring to survive and the expectation of being left alone was at my core. It was a process of facing frightening times and deep fears and choosing surrender rather than protection. I had to allow my heart to risk loving and being loved. Surviving put a lock on my heart but overcoming was to open that door 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑜 𝑙𝑎𝑦 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝐽𝑒𝑠𝑢𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑑𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑚.
I remember when my family brought a foster baby into our home. I could feel my heart falling deeply in love with this little boy. Somehow I knew deep inside that he was only “on loan“ to us. I had a choice- I could merely care for him and survive losing him or I could open my heart and give him all the love he deserved and I had wifhin me to give. So, knowing that my heart would face incredible loss I gave it fully to him. For four years I loved that little boy with everything in me. It was so beautiful! Most days I’d lay down with him during his nap time and just stare at him, pray for him and tears would often flow as I overcame what I knew was coming. Sure enough that day came but through the terrible pain I had no regrets because I hadn’t held anything back. He would carry throughout his life all the love that I’d poured into him even if he didn’t remember me. And I would always have the memory and beauty of four years of loving the sweetest little boy. It’s been six years since then and I have no regrets. I learned to overcome so that I could experience deep intimacy rather than merely survive and experience only the shallow places.
There is a healing that is being offered by the Father that takes your hand and walks you into the deeper waters of surrender and trust so that you can experience the fullness of beauty, intimacy and encounter. Will pain still come? Yes, but you won’t merely survive pain but thrive in the midst of pain. Surrender has been the greatest gift because it allows me to 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑔𝑜! In that place I find that I experience being held by the arms of my God when I feel like pain leaves me unable to breathe. His love and intimate presence becomes my breath and my overcoming strength. It is then that I thrive!
My life is so much richer from having loved when loss was a high risk. I’ve done that many times now. Actually, all earthly love (except for our love for Jesus) has that risk. But the choice is to self-preserve and hold back or to lay it all down and love fully knowing that the the 𝙊𝙣𝙚 𝙎𝙪𝙧𝙚 𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 will carry us through the times of loss and pain. I have always gained far more then I lost when I’ve given all of me.
It’s time to give 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 to the One who gave all of Him for you. Ask Him to reset you to the default of an overcomer not merely a survivor. Again, overcoming takes dependency, surrender and letting go of control. It’s so worth rhe cost!
It’s time to thrive while you’re alive- not only survive. Holy Spirit come and do for us what we cannot do for ourselves. Help us to let go and find where you are in the midst of storms so that we can lay down with you…𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑠.
“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.” Psalm 126:5-6
As I meditated on these two verses the Lord highlighted the portion that says, 𝑇ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑜𝑤. I suddenly was overcome by the pleasure of the Lord for His sons and daughters as they chose to sow seeds in the midst of their tears. I could feel how proud He is of His children who are pushing past their personal pain to sow seeds of worship, obedience, truth, finances, encouragement and honor.
Though many of these precious ones have slept upon pillows soaked with their own tears, they still make a choice to face the morning by sowing seeds that bring honor and pleasure to the heart of God. They know that He alone is worthy of all honor; even in the midst of their personal pain.
The enemy may work hard to cause shame and pain but God has a promise for you,
“Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours.” Isaiah 61:7
What appears now to be losses will soon prove to be your season of multiplication. Many prophetic voices are hearing the words, “Double for your troubles” and I believe this to be true. Negatives will soon be positives and not only positives but multiplications.
Hold onto hope! Though hope may feel like a “long shot” in the midst of the current circumstances and pain…still- hold onto hope and keep sowing seeds in the time of weeping.
“Come back to the place of safety, all you prisoners who still have hope! I promise this very day that I will repay two blessings for each of your troubles.” Zechariah 9:12
I believe that many will experience their double portion breakthrough in the month of May. I specifically sense that this month is an open door that enters the body of Christ into a time of many breakthroughs. The summer months will be marked by miracles and remembered as the summer of miracles and summer of redemption! Multiplication will mark your life!
Though tears of pain have fallen, they have watered seeds of joy that will suddenly spring forth like wildflowers that are even now covering the fields. You will stand in awe as you witness the grace, kindness and goodness of God. Your tears have fallen and watered the seeds you have sown in faith and hooe. Songs of deliverance will soon be sung and the atmosphere will be filled with the sounds of joy.
“Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16
The Lord spoke to me that today begins a month of extravagant and extraordinary grace; 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑢𝑝𝑜𝑛 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑒! He is inviting His people to 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙡𝙙𝙡𝙮 to His throne of grace where you will receice mercy, grace and help for 𝗔𝗟𝗟 that you need.
Need often causes us to become aware of our weakness and dependency upon God. Therefore, this time of need has created an invitation to “come boldly before His throne of grace.“ His throne is where our help comes from. Most are standing in unemployment lines, lines to enter grocery stores and welfare lines but there is a place that there is no line, no wait and no need to prove or explain your need- it is a place of help, grace and compassion. There is no fear or shame in this place; only help and joy.
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” II Corinthians 12:9
In May we will see a great manifestation of the strength (power) of God being made perfect (manifest) in the midst of need (weakness). The power of God will rest upon you in ways that strengthen you, uphold you and help you.
This is not a time to come under a spirit of despair because of your need or your weakness but it is time to be clothed in bold confidence and approach the throne where our Savior is seated and distributes grace without measure- He just says, “𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙚.“
Get ready to be a walking testimony of His power and grace coming uoon you! Many will ask you how you are thriving in this time and you will take them by the hand and lead them to the throne of grace to receive help.
We will have the spirit of prophesy resting upon us as the testimony of His faithfulness is made known to those around us.
“I will make known the Lord’s faithful love and the Lord’s praiseworthy acts, because of all the Lord has done for us — even the many good things he has done for the house of Israel, which he did for them based on his compassion and the abundance of his faithful love.” Isaiah 63:7
May you approach Him with bold confidence as we enter the month of May!
Did you know that as believers we are not under the control of the chaos, confusion and circumstances of the world around us? The promises of God are above the bad reports of the earth below.
Today I was praying through the first and second chapters of the Book of Proverbs and I was so taken by the amazing wisdom that produces the promises of God to be made manifest in our lives as we “listen and obey.”
Here are just a few of them:
• If you cry out for insight and understanding, God will give you wisdom, knowledge and understanding. (2:1-4)
• As you receive wisdom, knowledge and understanding you will gain success! (2:6)
• As you live in integrity God will guard and protect your path. (2:7-9)
• As you walk in the wisdom of God you will be rescued from darkness. (2:9-20)
• As you live an upright life you will “inhabit the land and remain in it.” The wicked will be cut off and uprooted from it. (2:21-22)
• As you keep God’s commands He will give you many days, a full life and well-being. (3:1-2)
• As you hold fast to loyalty and faithfulness you will find favor WITH GOD AND MAN! (3:3-4)
• As you trust in the Lord and acknowledge His ways (not depending on your own understanding) He will guide you on the RIGHT paths. (3:5-6)
• As you fear the Lord and turn away from evil, healing will come to your body and strength to your bones. (3:7-8)
And, one last promise! This is a key one…
• As you honor the Lord with your processions and the first fruits of your increase He promises that YOUR BARNS WILL BE COMPLETELY FILLED AND YOUR VATS WILL OVERFLOW WITH NEW WINE!!
There are so many more promises that a lifestyle of wisdom and obedience ushers in. This is part of the amazing alignments that have been taking place. To live apart from obedience that comes from His wisdom is like trying to take a drink from a water fountain and turning it on but not aligning your mouth with the stream of water. The lack of alignment causes the flowing water to pour down the drain; never quenching your thirst.
We must open our spiritual mouths and then align our lives with the flowing wisdom that fills our lives to overflowing! Then our barns will be filled completely and the “vats” of our lives will overflow (a vat is a large tank that holds liquid). It’s time to hold the liquid of the new wine of His glory and His promises!
While the world eats of the “grapes of wrath” let us, as God’s people, be filled with the new wine that is grown in the vineyards of wisdom and oneness.
It’s time to align to drink the new wine!
Thank you to those who have stood with us in prayer and support during this time. We are decreeing His favor and increase upon you.
Last week I was listening to a pastor and very successful businessman who was talking about the key to his success. He said it is believing the “surelys” in the Bible! First he brought us to Hebrews 6:14 that says,
“Surely blessing I will bless you, and multiplying I will multiply you.” Hebrews 6:14 NKJV
Then he brought us to the most known Psalm— Psalm 23, verse 6 where it says,
“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life…” Psalms 23:6
He said that every morning he begins His day by praying and decreeing the “surely” truths over his life. I am calling it “The Surely Effect”!
As he prayed these verses over his life he said that he saw the cartoon character from the Charlie Brown strip named, Pigpen. Pigpen had a cloud of dirt that followed him wherever he went— it went before him, behind him and beside him. The Lord showed him that the “surely” promises of blessings, multiplication, mercy and loving kindness would encircle his life in the same way that the dust cloud encircled Pigpen’s life.
Once again…it is what I’m calling the “Surely Effect.” Isn’t it time to walk in His promises? To agree with, align with and decree them as a promised truth over everything you do and everything you touch?
Surely means assurance and confidence which is the same meaning as HOPE in regards to our faith. Faith is the assurance of things hoped for! It is confident expectation and assurance that what God says it true. He cannot lie!
It’s time to align with the “Surely Effect”! This will renew your faith and become a truth that surrounds you like a cloud of favor and promise.
Yesterday I did a Facebook live that talked about shaking off disappointment and going back to the trust that says, “He who promised is faithful.” (Hebrews 11:11). Far too often believers align with a false “surely” that tells a lie about our God. It says that surely you will be disappointed, surely you will lack, surely you will fail…and so on! But that is a lie that needs to be trampled like a snake under our feet. The truth is that for every believer, “Surely goodness and loving kindness, blessings and multiplication…and no lack” will follow you.
Every morning when I wake up my amazing husband brings me a latte while I’m still in bed and for the next hour I sit with Jesus— worship music awakens my soul, His presence becomes my sunrise and peace prepares my heart to “be still and know that He is God!”
My routine was changed a bit today when I answered a text and my eyes were drawn to a notification on my phone from a page called, “View from my window.” It’s a FB page that has almost 2M followers that is dedicated to this quarantine time. People from all across the world send in photos of the view from their windows at home. I began to look at the photos from people’s homes and was captured by the beauty of creation! I was so drawn into each unique setting— both the ones with profound views of mountain peaks as well as the ones with simple views of a swing set that their children play on. They spoke of such personal beauty and the stories of the lives that look out upon these scenes.
I began to be overcome by His love for each life and each family that these “window views” represented. He see such beauty in each one. Like an adoring Father, He sees the beauty that the rest of the world may just walk by and miss. He sees through the windows of their souls and knows each one so intimately— even if they’ve forgotten Him. Their beauty–and your beauty–takes His breath away! The view of you is His favorite thing to look upon! You ravish Him!
Here in Virginia we’ve been blessed with such a beautiful spring! Most days have been sunny and have provided breathtaking sunsets that keep this quarantine time kissed by beauty. But yesterday grey skies rolled in and I had one of those day where my whole focus had to be on “business” work— which always drains me. As I began to feel the depletion of joy (because I need daily visual and spiritual beauty), I heard the Spirit whisper to me, “Just stop for an hour and come see Me.”
I set my laptop aside, my phone aside and my work aside. Then I closed my eyes to “behold His beauty.” Time with Him is like a stroll through a garden of fragrant beauty— flowers, spices, light, color and intimacy.
“My lover has gone down to his garden, to his spice beds, to browse in the gardens and gather the lilies. I am my lover’s, and my lover is mine. He browses among the lilies.” Song of Songs 6:2-3
I want to encourage each of you to not get stuck in the mundane! Yes— here in quarantine there is still work to be done, children to be raised, meals to be prepared, messed to be cleaned and problems to be solved. But do not forsake time that is set aside to behold beauty; behold His beauty and behold the beauty that surrounds you. Search for Him and search for places that refresh and restore your soul. Go find a simple flower and gaze at it until you see His face appear in creation.
As a child, before I knew the Lord, I was growing up in one of the most beautiful settings in the Sierra Nevada mountains of California. My family was often in chaos and turmoil but I remember that in the midst of an overwhelming atmosphere I would often walk outside and lay on our grass under the towering pine trees and just look up at the vibrant blue sky and breathe in the mountain air— it would reset me and enable me to go on. I didn’t realize that it was God who had set me in a “cathedral of His creation” that I could escape to and be restored. What a gift.
Today my family lives on what was once a Civil War battlefield in Virginia. Sometimes when I walk the battlefield trail I think about those that were there experiencing such despair in the midst of so much natural beauty. I wonder if at times they stopped and looked up at the very trees that I am gazing upon and found a moment of beauty that reminded them that there was something more?
I don’t know what you are facing in the midst of this time of a global crisis but whatever it is— be sure to stop and find beauty. I remind myself each day that the sun still rises and sets with all of its brilliance, the wind still blows through the tall grasses causing it to dance, the waves still crash upon the shores, the birds still sing the songs of creation and the colors still reveal the vibrancy of a beautiful Creator. Find His face, His beauty and His garden. Go taste and see— it is His banqueting table set before you; even in the midst of your enemies.
Beauty waits to have you come behold it.
Thank you to all of my readers who have prayed for us and supported us through financial gifts through this time! You are beautiful!
As I have been spending time with the Lord this morning I was shown a vision of this “quarantine time” but in it I was in an optometrist office receiving an eye exam and being fitted for lenses that would bring my vision back to 20/20.
Many prophetic voices prophesied words about 20/20 vision coming in 2020. I recently came across a post from a man who was mocking those words and saying that this pandemic has proven the prophetic voices wrong. Well, I don’t know about you but for me personally this has been a time of seeing the state of my body, soul and spirit with greater clarity then ever before! The Spirit has been searching my life and my heart and giving me 20/20 vision to see what was formerly blurred by all the busyness and clutter in my soul.
I have never seen the finished work of the cross as clearly as I do right now. The power of His blood is bringing forth a personal reformation that is washing away everything that has usurped the true source of life and liberty. Much of what I saw were “good things” but not what I needed— for they were blocking my view of Him. It was like looking upon the wardrobe of someone you love but not truly seeing the person or the owner of the garments. My life was like a closet, stuffed full of His garments and yet little room for Him!
For me, it’s been like a fog has lifted (a veil has torn) and I can see again. Now I can partner with Him and yield to the work of His Spirit within me to bring me into greater “oneness with Christ.” Isn’t that the last thing that Jesus prayed before going to the cross?
“I pray that they will all be one, just as you and I are one—as you are in me, Father, and I am in you. And may they be in us so that the world will believe you sent me.” John 17:21
How can we be one with one another if we are not first and foremost “one with God?” How will the world know if we are not—“in Him?” The verse above says, “…And may they be in us so that the world will believe you sent me.”
We have read these words thousands of times; prayed them, preached them and prophesied them! But until this time I do not know if we could “see” the way into oneness because we have been so divided in our own hearts and lives by the “things of Him” rather than Him alone. This “Selah” has stopped the speed of life that was blurring the very things we claim to hold dear.
If you are driving in a speeding vehicle everything that you pass by is blurred due to the speed you are moving at. But if you stop the vehicle and get out you can view your surroundings with clear focus and finally see the little details you missed at high speed. Often those details will include “the little foxes that spoil the vineyard.”
“Catch all the foxes, those little foxes, before they ruin the vineyard of love, for the grapevines are blossoming!” Song of Songs 2:15
We are in a spiritual “early Spring.” The grapevines of our love are blossoming and this pause or Selah has stopped us so that we see clearly and can “catch the little foxes” that seek to ruin the vineyard. If you run after a fox it will run away and most likely outrun you; but if you stop and are very still you can trap that fox and remove it from the vineyard of your life.
It is also very difficult to nurture love on the run! You must stop and get face to face and heart to heart with the one you love. The seeds of love grow underground in the hidden place where “soil and seed” are joined. It takes stillness, time, patience and watering to yield the fruit within. The same is true with our relationship with God and with people. I love the convergences of ministries but I long for the oneness of hearts even more. But first I must nurture my love with Christ.
I believe that the “20/20 vision in 2020” prophetic words may be the most accurate words ever prophesied into a new year. Did we expect it to come in this way— NO! But isn’t that usually the case with the prophetic? We hear what He plans to do but we rarely know how He will do it. His ways are not our ways nor His thoughts our thoughts! And honestly, if we knew beforehand the details of “how” we’d probably try to orchestrate and control it and mess it up. What a wise Father we have!
One of the words the Lord spoke to me regarding 2020 was the word, “Jubilee.” A Jubilee Year is a time when all debts are forgiven. In the midst of what appears to be an unprecedented global economic crisis this word, “Jubilee” surely seems to be a major miss! Or is it?
For me personally, I feel like my soul is receiving an emotional and spiritual jubilee! The deeper revelation of the finished work of the cross that paid every debt is bringing me into a jubilee season like never before. I knew this truth before but it is becoming a deeper experiential reality that is not only catching the little foxes but it is causing me to become “one with Him.” I pray that this Jubilee will touch our economy as well but I am so overjoyed that it is first touching my soul and your soul.
So. YES— 2020 is a year of 20/20 vision. You must get still and allow our Great Optometrist, Jesus Christ, to examine you and give you new lenses. It’s time to see!
Thank you to each of my readers who have stood with us in prayer and support during this time— we could not do this without you! We pray for each of you by name!
Yesterday I was sent an email that shared a dream that someone had which had me in it. She did not know what it meant but felt that she was to share it with me. As I read it I received insight regarding what the Lord was saying through this dream. I believe it clearly points to a demonic plot against our president that can be likened to Absalom’s plot to kill King David (and all those with him) in 2 Samuel 17.
“I will strike while he is weary and exhausted, and terrify him; and all the people with him will flee [in terror]. Then I will attack the king alone,” 2 Samuel 17:2
The dream begins on the outskirts of an alligator infested swamp where I am with the person who had the dream and other intercessors. We see the oldest, largest and most hidden alligator that lives in this swamp and grass was growing on the back of this great beast. The grass was there to camouflage and hide him from being seen. People were walking upon this grass completely unaware of what was right under their feet.
I believe that the swamp represents the United States of America. Our president is known for saying, “Drain the swamp!” But, the enemy knows that if we drain the swamp we will expose this Leviathan.
After the “swamp scene” the dream changes. In the next part of the dream I am instructing the intercessors to go to Colorado Springs. We go there and I go into a room with a bed in it and lay face down on it in order to receive a “word from the Lord.” Suddenly the Spirit of the Lord falls on me causing me to shake so severely that I fall off of the bed and onto the floor; shaking under His power. As I read this part I felt that it could represent the importance of the word that I will receive; which could be the interpretation to this dream.
I find it interesting that I send this group to Colorado Springs since this is where Lou Engel is now living and leading our nation into prayer and fasting from his home there. I also found out that Vice President Pence arrived in Colorado Springs the same day I received the dream (April 18th) which I believe speaks to the NOW timing upon this dream. Our Vice President is the head of the Coronavirus task force therefore God may be asking for prayer for him and his leadership in this role.
The last part of this dream is that the person (who had this dream) was with me in the room when the Spirit fell on me. She was holding her “revelation journals” and all she remembers is that she wanted giving me a scripture out of 2 Samuel. That concluded the dream.
The person who had this dream could not remember the chapter or verse reference from 2 Samuel. Yet when I read the dream I felt led to ask her the date that she had the dream and she told me the early morning hours of the 17th. I felt the Spirit say, “Go to 2 Samuel 17 and you will know what is happening.” So, I first went to the early verses in 2 Samuel 17. That is when I read these words that captured my attention,
“I will strike while he is weary and exhausted, and terrify him; and all the people with him will flee [in terror]. Then I will attack the king alone,” 2 Samuel 17:2
Please read thorough 2 Samuel 17 regarding the plans of Absalom to take King David’s life. I feel convinced that the enemy has a plot to destroy our president and cause those standing him to run from him in terror (leaving him exposed).
Let’s pray that our president will listen to the voices of the prophets in his life and follow their instructions. A spirit of rebellion is plotting against him in a time where he is weary and exhausted. It’s an Absalom spirit that wants to take the place of “king” and rally the people under his leadership. Through the words of the prophet a strategy is made to save the King David. Because of this strategy King David and those with him are rerouted and saved causing Absalom’s plans to thwarted. He then hangs himself.
There is a victory if we pray and bring wisdom and warning to our president. Let us get on our faces and pray!
Thank you to all of my readers who have stood with us in financial support throughout this quarantinetime. My husband and I are so incredibly grateful for you and we pray for you and your households each day.
When the coronavirus first began to be revealed, prior to the quarantine orders, the Lord was whispering the words from the first verses of Song of Solomon 3 into my spirit. I want to share these verses with you from The Amplified Bible,
““On my bed night after night [I dreamed that] I sought the one Whom my soul loves; I sought him but did not find him. I said ‘So I must arise now and go out into the city; Into the streets and into the squares [places I do not know] I must seek him whom my soul loves.’ I sought him but I did not find him. The watchmen who go around the city found me, And I said, ‘Have you seen him whom my soul loves?’ Scarcely had I passed them When I found him whom my soul loves. I held on to him and would not let him go Until I had brought him to my mother’s house, And into the chamber of her who conceived me.”” Song of Solomon 3:1-4 AMP
The words, “When I found him whom my soul loves…I held on to him and would not let him go.” echoed in my heart like a voice calling into an deep canyon of desire. I was longing to return to the deep place where He alone is my every “desire fulfilled.” I deeply longed to throw off everything that hindered that pursuit because I knew that it would take me back to first love; which must be the source and foundation for for all that I do.
Just as in our earthly marriages; we can get to points and times where we are merely “going through the motions.” It’s not that we do not still love our spouses, but due to busyness (parenting, careers, responsibilities) we forget the passions and longings that we shared when our love was new. If we remain in that place without rekindling or reawakening love, it will eventually grow cold. Our “I love you” will become just words that end a phone call or salutation rather than an ongoing experience that takes us to new depths of oneness with each other.
This is true with our walk with the Lord as well. In January and February, as these words were stirring in my soul, a hunger was growing inside of me to throw off every hinderance and run fully after Him to awaken first love once again. I wasn’t satisfied with merely going through the motions or saying the right words apart from a place of passionate pursuit. I didn’t want all that I did to merely become “works.”
Then came March when a sudden HALT came to the entire earth. It was like the Commander of the Host of Heaven’s army arrived on the chaotic scene of busyness and commanded everything to “BE STILL!” Since that point many have been living out a sudden self-awareness of their spiritual state. This abrupt “stop” has allowed for us to come into much needed awareness of the condition of our relationships; with God, our spouses, our families and with one another.
For me personally, it took a couple of weeks for my mind and my soul to begin to slow and truly “be still.” Though outside activities had stopped, my mind and long-standing habits of busyness still vied for first place and for my affections. But the ongoing voice of my Beloved patiently persisted in His pursuit for me to “find Him and not let Him go!”
As I began to allow the reset and adjustments of my soul to take place I could feel an awakening beginning to take place. Then— a dear friend, David Bradshaw (who is also my pastor), began doing a daily broadcast that is walking viewers verse-by-verse through the book, Song of Solomon. As I was watching one of these broadcasts I felt the Spirit say to me, “Your works are about to become ACTS as you allow first love to be awakened. This will be your personal Pentecost as you wait in the upper room.”
My heart immediately knew what He was saying! When He said that my works would become ACTS I knew that there was a clear distinction. It was like moving from “going through the motions” to what the disciples experienced in the Book of Acts. As they waited in the upper room the were like the Shulamite who left the comforts of her room and were running through the streets looking for the one her soul loved. Though they were still and locked in (waiting), just as we are today, their souls were searching and desperately waiting to be filled with the promise that would awaken them. And sure enough their Day of Pentecost came,
“On the day of Pentecost all the believers were meeting together in one place. Suddenly, there was a sound from heaven like the roaring of a mighty windstorm, and it filled the house where they were sitting. Then, what looked like flames or tongues of fire appeared and settled on each of them. And everyone present was filled with the Holy Spirit and began speaking in other languages, as the Holy Spirit gave them this ability.” Acts 2:1-4
In this place, this upper room, there were Jews (and gentile converts) from every nation together. As the “tongues of fire” settled on each one they began to speak in the native language of those from other nations that were present and they declared (in languages that were not their own) the awesome and wonderful works of God.
God’s “wonderful works” are NEVER void or separated from the absolute passionate adoration and oneness that is shared by our Triune God. The Son is always revealing His Father, the Father is always revealing His Son and the Holy Spirit is revealing the Father and the Son in the fullness of oneness and agape love. As the “works of God” were being revealed and declared through the tongues of fire; they became prophecy for the very ACTS that they would do from that day onward. Peter spoke these words,
“‘AND IT SHALL BE IN THE LAST DAYS,’ says God, ‘THAT I WILL POUR OUT MY S PIRIT UPON ALL MANKIND; AND YOUR SONS AND YOUR DAUGHTERS SHALL PROPHESY, AND YOUR YOUNG MENSHALL SEE [divinely prompted] VISIONS, AND YOUR OLD MEN SHALL DREAM [divinely prompted] DREAMS; EVEN ON MY BOND-SERVANTS, BOTH MEN AND WOMEN, I WILL IN THOSE DAYS POUR OUT M Y SPIRIT And they shall prophesy. AND I WILL BRING ABOUT WONDERS IN THE SKY ABOVE AND SIGNS (attesting miracles) ON THE EARTH BELOW, BLOOD AND FIRE AND SMOKING VAPOR. THE SUN SHALL BE TURNED INTO DARKNESS AND THE MOON INTO BLOOD, BEFORE THE GREAT AND GLORIOUS DAY OF THE LORD COMES. AND IT SHALL BE THAT EVERYONE WHO CALLS UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD [invoking, adoring, and worshiping the Lord Jesus] SHALL BE SAVED (rescued spiritually).’” Acts 2:17-21
When love grows cold, ACTS turn into “the works of men” rather than the “wonderful works of God.” But when the bride is awakened to the true revelation of the one her soul loves, then mortal works (even good works) become “acts of God!” Miracles, signs and wonders will follow them because they have become one with Him (even as they are one— John 17:20-23).
What happened after that is that those who were filled on the Day of Pentecost began preaching with power that caused those who heard their message to truly repent and turn to God!
As we wait in our “upper rooms” during this time and search for the One our souls love, we will experience a personal Pentecost that will fill us with power from on high as it aligns us in “oneness with Christ”; revealing the Father, Son and Holy Spirit to those who have never repented and turned to Him. When we are one the world will “know and believe!”
The message that we will carry from this time (this upper room waiting time) will be understood by those who have never heard this “language” before. We will speak, by the unction of His Spirit, in a language that the world can understand— causing them to repent and turn to God. This will bring in the greatest harvest ever seen!
But first we must respond. We must stop and allow for the time of waiting in the upper room to take place. This is where we search for Him until we find Him and then we never let Him go. The Spirit will fall on us with the fulfillment of Jesus’ prayer in John 17:20-23,
““My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one— I in them and you in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.” John 17:20-23
When a couple is married the two become one flesh. God is bringing forth oneness; not mere unity— but rather oneness with Christ and oneness with one another. As we become one with Him we, in turn, see others as He sees them and can be one with them through the revelation of His agape love.
It is the time to “be still and know!” There is an unbreakable “knowing” that comes through the intimacy of oneness. When Mary was visited by the angel who announced that she would conceive a son, she questioned him saying, “How can this be since I have never known a man?” (Luke 1:34) This “knowing” is speaking of sexual intimacy which is a human and physical act that brings oneness and bears fruit. It is an earthly representation of a spiritual truth. The spiritual act of intimacy also ushers in oneness and bears fruit through the revelation of Jesus— our eternal Bridegroom.
Continue to wait in your upper room and yet run in your spirit to search for Him. Oneness is coming which will reform and transform everything and everyone. Then…the world will know!
Thank you to all of my readers who have stood with us in prayer and financial support at this critical time. We are praying for you by name and declaring all of His promises to be made manifest in your life and your family.